17 weeks

Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along: 17 wks, 1 day

Total Weight Gain/ Loss: 9 lbs

Maternity Clothes: Still loving my Gap jeans… I want another pair! My clothing options have been very limited.

Best Moment this Week:  The 16 wk ultrasound! I got to see the little toes and hands and profile of baby! It was incredible.

Gender:  Baby’s legs were crossed!  I’ve had multiple people tell me that could be the indication of a girl but we’ll see!  Hopefully we will know at the 20 wk appointment but if not, we will probably have a gender neutral nursery.

Movement: Definitely feeling something!

Food Cravings: Nothing in particular… I’m just always hungry

Food Aversions: Still nothing in particular

Symptoms/ Changes: I’m getting so big… I feel like I’m bigger than I should be but the doctor says I’m perfectly healthy.  I’ve also had a lot of headaches, heartburn, and forgetfulness.  I feel like I’m in a fog most of the time, which isn’t great at work!

Sleep:  I have had the strangest dreams…

What I’m looking forward to:  Moving in two weeks! We’ll be able to start getting the house ready for baby!

15 wks, 4 days Highlights

Pregnancy Highlights :)

How far along: 15wks, 4 days

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 5lbs as of my last appointment, I’m scared to see how much I’ve gained since then.

Maternity Clothes:  Loving my Gap Maternity Jeans! They feel like sweatpants but look like skinny jeans.

Best Moment this Week: I had lots of time off work so the hubby and I got to hang out around the house a lot and do nothing… it was great!

Gender:  HOPEFULLY we will find out Jan. 9! We will probably have to wait another month though.

Movement:  I swear I felt something a couple times this week.  It’s really hard to figure out what is baby and what isn’t.

Food Cravings: Not really craving anything lately.  During my first trimester I couldn’t get enough pizza!

Food aversions: Nothing too exciting… all the same foods that I didn’t like before being pregnant.

Symptoms/ Changes:  I’ve been feeling the ligament stretching pains lately.  It’s super uncomfortable.

Sleep:  I wake up at least once to go to the bathroom… other than that, it’s not been too terrible.

What I’m looking forward to: My 16 wk appointment! I can’t wait to have another ultrasound!  I really want to find out the gender of the baby but we shall see!

15 wks, 4 days

So I'm already close to 16 weeks pregnant and I feel like I haven't done any of the cute things that I had always planned on doing during my first pregnancy.  I had every intention on tracking every detail of each week by journaling or blogging, taking weekly pictures, etc.  I have yet to do either.  I got a little bit down last night while I was thinking about it and started down a rabbit trail of negative questions and thoughts.  

If I can't even do these simple things now, how will I be a good mother?  

Why aren’t I like all those gorgeous pregnant women on Pinterest who take the cutest pregnancy pictures ever?

Will my child be disappointed that I don't have fun pregnancy things to show him or her? 

It didn't take long for me to realize how ridiculous I sounded!  Why would taking weekly pictures make me more prepared of a mother?  The truth is, I'm not prepared at all.  What first time mother is totally prepared for this job?  I would do myself and my child a great disservice by thinking that I’ve got this all figured out and under control.  In reality, I have ZERO control over either my life or my baby’s life.  The Lord is the only author and sustainer of life.  Only by walking with Him and in the Truth of Jesus Christ will I ever be the godly mother that I desire to be.

I will probably try to kick it in gear with some of this fun pregnancy stuff, but not because I think it will make me more worthy of motherhood.  I know God is faithful and He created this child for a PURPOSE.  I am so excited and grateful that He is blessing Stephen and I can’t wait to see what the Lord has in store!